The art of noticing your life

(My poem appeared here)

It was the day we laughed so hard
we made the carnations bloom

I was four
it was cool

we were running like horses
a game of tag
happiness all balled up in our shoulders
shooting out of us in shrieks and bellows

I'm a tiger
she declared

and I decided I was too

an enlightened tiger
with nothing to do
but chase the wind

they say it whips you in the face
but this isn't how it works
if you run hard enough
the wind bores right into you

I don't remember anything else
except the smell of sand
sweet as cake

the wind carried the rest away.

Instapoems by Bentlily.com :-) Very cool :-)

Feed the Soul..

..with music!

Not the type that I usually listen to, but these are really great stuff!

Gregory Page

Richie Aldente

I Promise by Cat Martino via Shaking Through

And of course, Love is a Four Letter Word, new album by Jason Mraz






:-)

Getting Over It

In the words of others, this is an excerpt of the struggle that goes on inside my head (and heart); a tug-of-war from self-dissatisfaction to appreciation, from ambition to motivation, from desperate wanting to optimism.

Conformity knows no time or place; it is a struggle all of us face, to be ourselves despite the overwhelming pressure to be like everyone else. (Anna Quindlen)

I am grateful for my life and all of life, for what I see and what I don’t see. (Jason Mraz)



...I want to be THAT unmistakable.
Like the lilting songbird serenades of Alison Krauss. Like the gravely poetry-rumble of Leonard Cohen. Like the clean-swept temple-step prose of Danielle LaPorte. Like the lurid, fatally-beautiful fashions of Alexander McQueen. Like the ethereal, other-worldy creations of Luxirare. Like the lift-you-up-and-keep-you-twirling textiles & patterns of Jessica Swift.Like Oprah. Like Wagner. Like Ellen. Like Poe.

Even without my name attached, will this be UNMISTAKABLE? (Alexandra Franzen)

Ode to a life I do not yet have (Susannah Conway)

It is wise to keep your pen moving as well as your feet. Your hand is often a truer version than your word in that you get to speak in private with your present & future self. Don’t dam the stream of consciousness. Trust where your river of thought is going and go with the flow. I promise you will reach the ocean. (Jason Mraz)

Life is so effin' complicated. At least mine is. And I realized that it has become such, because I made it that way. In my mind, I hold a picture of how my life should be -- How I should look, what I should do, who I should be with, what others should say about me, where I should belong, what I should achieve, and what I should have, WHO I SHOULD BE. I've become my own disciplinarian. Everyday, I try to fill my hours with activities that I believe will increase my self worth, to achieve that something that I feel I should already have achieved. I feel guilty when I slack off (which is pretty often) and I feel disappointed when I don't accomplish anything. I have this image of the perfect life, of that perfect somebody that I feel I am not. Everyday, I wake up and find that I am no closer to getting it, and I get frustrated. And then I meet people who seem to live the life I want, who seem to have it all, who seem to get the approval and admiration of everyone. And then I hear, "you should be like her." or, "I wonder how it would be if you were like that?" either from my own self or from others, and then I get even more frustrated. My boyfriend tells me I am overdoing it and over thinking everything, that I lack nothing and have almost everything. There is nothing wrong with me, he tells me. Yes, I know. I'd be dumb not to know it. I know I have plenty to be grateful for, and truly, I am. Yet, there are those days when I find a hundred and more things wrong with me and my life. It is sad, annoying, and stupid. An endless banter forms in my head, pushing back and forth between pessimism and optimism. I have never been able to get past this phase. Am I the only one feeling this way?

Note to self: Get over it, fast!

Style Watch

I created this set via Polyvore. You can check out the items in here.
My cousin, K, wore a similar ensemble during our Tagayaty day trip. She has awesome taste! I'm always excited to see what she wears next! A bright orange lip color from Mac completed her look :-)
I'm not sure if the shoes match the whole ensemble, though. But I don't really care. I love their color!!

Family Friday

Friday the 13th o_0

Little Things

My mama's collection of little things :-)

Success in life is founded upon attention to the small things rather than to the large things; to the every day things nearest to us rather than to the things that are remote and uncommon. --Booker T. Washington